Had a rehearsal day, if you could call it that, 11.00 – 14.45, went through a scene with the other cast members who are in the scene. Really felt out of place and useless. Asked my tutor about Spotlight, which is one of the main websites for casting, you need either professional credits or a year at a authenticated acting school, which apparently the one I’m at isn’t. That means finding an acting school, and I don’t think I’m good enough to get into one. They’re also really expensive from what little I know. I don’t know, I’m just so down lately, and I feel like I’m being knocked further and further back. I’m getting knocked from every angle it seems, better off blocking people out, and giving up, hiding under my duvet. Nothing can hurt me from there.