A “friend” said I was “Borderline Emotionally Manipulative” the other day, AFTER, I’d told them I was suicidal. They said they cared which is why they were saying to “get the self-pity out”. I’m sorry, but how is that caring? What’s worse is this person has been in a bad place before, so for them… Read More Emotions
Lesson 5 didn’t happen as I wasn’t well, hence the skipping to Lesson 6. I got a script via email the other day for Lesson 6, only to discover the person I’m doing the script with was not there and because I’d already analysed it I didn’t have much to do. I ran through it… Read More Acting For Camera (Lesson 6)
“Masquerade paper faces on parade, masquerade, hide your face so the world will never find you”* except I suspect the world has found me, and it’s staring hard, judging all the movements, all the steps, all the words, everything. Watching. Waiting. Waiting for me to slip and fall so they can laugh at me. Waiting… Read More Watching. Waiting.
Having seen my GP last Tuesday and spoken with him a decision was made that for my own Mental Well-being I should withdraw from the play, which is what I did. But whilst at the GP he looked at my notes from when he referred me last to see a Psychiatrist, there is a triage… Read More Help, what help
You’d never judge a book by it’s cover so why judge that because someone has Mental Health Problems that’s all that person is. There is ALWAYS more to a person that just Mental Health. Take me, yes, right now, I’m in a very bad place and I’m struggling, but don’t make that an excuse to… Read More Never Judge A Book By It’s Cover
Had a rehearsal day, if you could call it that, 11.00 – 14.45, went through a scene with the other cast members who are in the scene. Really felt out of place and useless. Asked my tutor about Spotlight, which is one of the main websites for casting, you need either professional credits or a… Read More Rehearsal Sunday
*This is quite a long entry, sorry in advance* Hello Darkness, my old friend, I’ve come to talk with you again… Living with Chronic Depression and Chronic Fatigue and eczema that’s caused by stress and environment, one can only hold out for so long before Darkness raises it’s ugly head. I shouldn’t be feeling this,… Read More Truths